Giving up v.s. giving in

Finding a place in life has really consumed me this passed year. I was looking for a place to belong, a place to be who I naturally am. But it has never been possible to find a completely comfortable place. Physically, I'm never comfortable unless I am in a huge chair, just reading, or talking to someone, anyone. But there are no huge chairs in school, and there is no time to talk, to anyone!! But I just got to say, t'is goin' great!!
Anyway, over the past year I have found myself giving in to things that I haven't been so comfy with. Like letting some of my guy friends get too close, because it felt like I had control over it. But in other circumstances I have been giveing up. I've given up my life to the one I love. I have made a statement, and this time i'm not backing up, or down from the challange called life. 'Cause this guy just took my life. I have already died, I can't die again. I have given up, when everyone else (basicly) around me has given in. This is a guarentee that I will make you, God has never left me, and he still hasn't forgot about me; I guarentee that he will never leave you, or forget about you. he is buisy, yes, but he still has all the time in the world. I am in love with him, cause he is love.

My high tech definition of mosquitoes

Satan is like mosquitoes, the only way to make them stop, is to kill them.

Fill my cup

Weeks become short as days as you call my name. my day will come swiftly and last only for a second. You have planned much for me and yet I have not noticed. I do not deserve it.
The sun is on fast forward, rewind is not an option. The moon never skips a beat.
The heat of the summer and the chill of the knowledge that winter will soon take place is not reassuring. But even through the seasons, good or not; you hold up my head, and show me that my crowns come from you, but my kingdoms are from another place.

I haven’t been looking forward, I have only been looking back, wanting to change things that I cannot. Reaching back, wanting to hold on as I am thrust forward. Grasping at the past, when you tell me to let go.

Right now I am gasping for breath that only comes from you. The first breath you breathed into Adam; the breath of life. Because I have stumbled in the battle field. There was a sword thrust into my breast, and now it has been gently taken out, freeing me of the pain. Now I need to fill this hole, before something else takes the place of my heart.

Talking about the Bible!!!

Ephesians 6:14-18 The Message (MSG)

14Truth, righteousness, 15peace, 16faith, 17and salvation are more than words. Learn how to apply them. You'll need them throughout your life. God's Word is an indispensable weapon. 18In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other's spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.

Dareing to be a hero

What is a hero? Is it a strong one? One who cannot be defeated? One who has no objective other than winning? No. Strength has nothing to do with being a hero. Strength is how the world describes it, but they just don’t see the falseness in that. For strength is a sheer word. How do we describe it? There is far more depth to strength than mere muscle. A hero doesn’t have to be bold or courageous, no, a hero must be brave. Brave enough to go out and face the road ahead. Brave enough to get out there and give back to God what God has given to him/her. A hero’s path is in line with both strength, and weakness. They are brave, but at times they may fall from bravery, for bravery is a mere word also. It means both boldness, and affliction. You cannot be brave, and daring, yet not have any problem, that’s just not possible. For the brave suffer greatly for what they are. And the daring learn too that they will fall short.

A Fight to the Finish
10And that about wraps it up. God is strong, and he wants you strong. 11So take everything the Master has set out for you, well-made weapons of the best materials. And put them to use so you will be able to stand up to everything the Devil throws your way. 12This is no afternoon athletic contest that we'll walk away from and forget about in a couple of hours. This is for keeps, a life-or-death fight to the finish against the Devil and all his angels.
13Be prepared. You're up against far more than you can handle on your own. Take all the help you can get, every weapon God has issued, so that when it's all over but the shouting you'll still be on your feet.
Ephesians 6:10-13